I believe… I believe… It’s silly, but I believe. – Susan Walker (Miracle on 34th Street)
This week has been a tough week in our household. This week marks seven months since we resigned at Parkway and it’s been an interesting search season to say the least. The last couple of mornings have been tough, especially getting up at 4:30 – in the dark and getting ready for work. As I mentioned in my last post, I have a bunch of worship songs loaded in my iPad via Spotify and I play them on my way to and from work. Since I use Anna’s car on those mornings, I use the Bluetooth feature – but that’s a whole other subject.
On Thursday morning, I was particularly down and I almost turned off the music. It was at that moment that I felt the prompting of the Holy Spirit. “Don’t turn off the music. Let me speak to you through it,” was the gentle voice I heard. In the next few moments as I drove to Chick-fil-A in the dark, the Lord ministered to me. I was still down, but the music and especially the words that were being sung helped me. The one song I remember playing was “Everlasting God.” It helped me get ready to step into the work environment.
Pam and I really miss the ministry environment. We have been assisting at a small Wesleyan church across the valley, but we know it is not ultimately where God would have us. In these waiting times, we sing the songs. I know I might catch some grief for this, but in some ways these songs we sing are a “means of grace.” They are a way that God is ministering his grace to us when we can’t quite see His plan.
I thought it was interesting because I ran across this article from the Worship Design Collective which is a branch of Seedbed. The title of the article intrigued me:
A few months ago, or even a year ago, there was a blog article called Stop Singing Oceans. I’m not so sure that I agreed with the author of that post…there are times that we pray — there are times that we preach — there are times that we sing — when we might not completely reflect the words we are singing — we may not completely believe them — we might not even want to do what we are singing or praying or preaching — but we do it anyway…because in the process God works — he changes us — he changes our thinking – he molds us into who we are – and in that process He changes are hearts so that the Spirit can take us beyond the border — he changes our hearts so that we can believe His plan for us.
So where are you this morning? Are you in a dark place? Are you somewhere that you don’t want to be? Is God testing your limits? Is God asking you to expand your borders? Is God asking you to walk on the water? Then sing – sing His praises – sing His promises – sing of His attributes — sing of the mighty things that He has done. Worship Him — Worship him with all your heart…worship Him with all your mind…worship Him with all your soul…worship Him will all your heart…and worship him with all your strength — that you may find where he is leading.
So here’s what I want you to do, God helping you: Take your everyday, ordinary life—your sleeping, eating, going-to-work, and walking-around life—and place it before God as an offering. Embracing what God does for you is the best thing you can do for him. Don’t become so well-adjusted to your culture that you fit into it without even thinking. Instead, fix your attention on God. You’ll be changed from the inside out. Readily recognize what he wants from you, and quickly respond to it. Unlike the culture around you, always dragging you down to its level of immaturity, God brings the best out of you, develops well-formed maturity in you.
Romans 12:1-2 (The Message)